Consistency

I have a really hard time being consistent in life. Anyone else? I always like the idea of a routine, but between inconsistent sleep & inconsistent moods (both my kids and myself) it's hard to keep doing the same thing every day.

Does this make me undisciplined? Am I allowing my feelings to rule me? Or am I being a 'roll with it' mom? One who lets the kids color her with marker & finger paint freely (but I know I am not that mom!). When can it just be the way things are? When can I just realize that no day, with this many people in a house, will be the same? Why do I have the need to be consistent and regimented? Why can't I stop questioning myself? When will 'flexing' seem 'normal'? When will I give myself a break?

This fight in my head, the one where you compare yourself to those who seem more regimented, or who simply are more regimented, needs to stop! When can I stop the comparison trap, the trap that compares me negatively & sees everyone else as having it all together (not a fair comparison when everyone else has a full pro list and not one con!). I need to see all the things that I bring to my family. Remember that I play with my kids daily & make sure they are comforted when they need it, I'm consistent with that!

I'm pretty sure there's one exception, one thing in my life that has to stay consistent, has to stay right where it is. And that's God. Every day I have to prioritize him! Especially when no one naps, the house looks like a tornado has come through and I'm ready to scream due to overtired children & no sanity saving quiet time (this was just two day ago!). Daily I need him for strength. I need him to give me wisdom. And whether at 12PM or 12AM, it is my resolve to pursue him daily!




'Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is - his good, pleasing and perfect will.'
Romans 12:2

'But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.'
Matthew 6:33-34